band outing to sentosa. the new band shirt is nice. the games is fun. i bet amazing race would be better. oh well. my group fillet-o-fish is so fishy yet fierce. posing takmau kalah. tengok la siape yang ajar. heheh. rush home to follow family out. no time to bath! papa is waiting downstairs already. mama waited for me. aww. love you mama. get changed and off. as fast as lighting. makan a banquet. peachy vanilla is heavenly.

job hunting with herlina and alysa. failed. instead we went around town. fuck i need money like crazy. there's too many good stuffs thats calling for me. asking me to buy them. boohoo. why oh why is so hard to get money. tsk.

tough luck.

guess what? i passed my examinations. :O i know, i am amazed too. :O yes indeed very shocking. :O yeah i know unbelievable right. :O k enough with the shock face ah. cis. well, i've promised people that i would get promoted to sec 4 express and i would not disappoint them. at first after looking at my marks, i thought that it was over. no hope. but wow, class position 25 and 78 for level. well, there's just stuffs that keep me motivated to do well. hehe.

hmm. despite me not sleeping at all the night before, i've survived school. well for the first half only. slept for 4 periods straight. drools. good sleep with earpiece plugged and ring ding dong blasting through my ears (kiwak, nak step manenye good compo pulak. tsk).

i'm going to MIA again. seriously need to get the laptop and computer fixed yo. bye, do miss me people.

pain/sadness hidden behind the smiles/laughter.

people say do whatever your heart tells you. well then heart, what do i do now?

iryadiy?

*my boyfriend.

miss me again right you guys? haha.

well i am very lazy to blog about all the things that had happen to me. hmm. my dnt is complete yo. good job nazrynn. my presentation board is superb. hehe. my results is @#$%&! whatever la kan. whatever that is going to happen, let it be. i've had enough. did not attend school today as i was extremely lazy. instead went to town with siblings. gosh i need yussofs.

any updates on life? yeah.

Alif Haykal
I'm sorry things doesn't turn out the way you wanted it to be. Sorry for causing you so much pain. Sorry i could not return your love. Thank you for everything. Thank you for all the gifts. Thank you for all the songs that you had wrote specially for me. Sorry and Thank you.

i'm an irritating ass. how sad.
what now? sigh.

my hair smells good.
haha.
^^

what if i were to give up?

this moment has come. exam's are over. blablabla.
ape lagi? enjoy ah! whatever la kan.

okayokay.
i'll try make my post longer la for once. i've not been actively online. reasons being that there's no working com or laptop at home. all those past post from the hari raya onwards, i've just publish them. haha. cheating. ada faham? oh nevermind.

hows life?
well, i've lost many things. i've sacrificed many things. i've given you all you ever wanted. trust me, that's a whole lot of things you know. hmm, thats just how my life is now. how i lived my everyday life. i've chose to live this way. i can leave, but hell no am i going to do that. people say i'm stupid. they call me weird. yes, thank you for your concerns. i don't know what else to say. i don't think there's anything else more that is needed to be said.

love is just a powerful thing, agreed?
huhu.

i love today.
i love the weather for not raining.
and i love you.
<3

i was on cloud nine.
and someone just have to take away my happiness.
fuck this moment.
:(

exams is here yo!
studyhard yer kawan-kaawanku.
step je nazrynn ni! :P

boy: "iwfy"
girl: "iwfyt"

<3

Selamat Hari Raya everyone! forgive and forget yer. sayang korang semua. fake! hahaha. takde la. kachingkaching yer. $$! suke la tu. cis. dah tak puasa! speak for yourself k nazrynn. hehh. takmo la cakap. hehehe.
:D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NASZIRAH BINTE ABDUL RAHIM!

and so you're finally legal. heheh. kening naiknaik turbo speed. can buy me good stuffs. yeah good stuffs indeed. hehe.

just got back.

mini celebration at makcik's house.

went to geylang after that. dengdengdeng. i like. i wonder how many times i've been there this year already. padahal three times only. the place is just so stuffy.

seventeen is so sad.

:(

mum woke me up at seven.

no hope in me getting to school on time so continued sleeping. my intention of going to band in the afternoon end up serving 2hrs of detention. hmm. 2hrs more to go then.

yadayadayada.

heh.

everyone meet tongue piercing once again.
winkwink.
^^

while sitting down watching kids play floorball, i suddenly felt an urge to watch twilight. seriously no link right. i know. i really cannot wait for new moon yo. k blablabla.

* * *

guess what?

another perangai big fuck. you do not even know me then nak berbual banyak eh girl. relax sudah ok. hmm. nazrynn is patient. but next time, make your facts right first before bull-shitting about someone alright.

k best.

what a day seriously. just got back home. tiring or whuaat?
wore matching colours. my baby and me wore white while pe'ah and her baby wore grey. we are such a cute couple today. seriously. anyway, our baby's pick us from my house. and off we go, hard deciding where to go. but since my baby want to go marina barrage, settled.

it was a hot and windy day.
the place was packed. the ben and jerry carnival[?] is making me mad. my throat is so dry. but chill, i can endure it. the water gallery or something was cool. blablabla. almost time for buka. buka at marina square. me and farhan finally get to eat. yummy!

met up with alif and gang. met new people. sat at esplanade. and somehow very suay. got screen by CID. followed by police. macam tak puas hati gitu eh. farhan was one lucky guy uh. nasib lepas. by the way, the band that played at the waterfront very nice. i wonder what band is that.

k pictures. enjoy dok.

since nazrynn is bored, she decided to change blogskin. so random uh. best viewed in mozilla. whats up with me and brown anyway? soo shitty. anyway, i think i want to batal puasa. my stomach is grumbling from just now! continuously non-stop. i want to eat. i mean i need to eat. rabak pe nazrynn. tsktsk.

i need to go and bath nooow.
going out with the baby's.
:P

lazy asssssss.
kinda lazy to blog nowadays. especially since its hard to get my hands on a working computer. hmm. anything new to update my readers? hmm. i got a new phone. keningnaiknaik. a flippy phone. and its blue. keningnaiknaikturbospeed. pretty la. like the owner herself. tsk. self-praising or whuaat? and currently i lost my sense of taste. flu. always like this. i have no idea why.

anyway, i feel like staying awake for few days but i don't see any hope in achieving my goal. (goal takperlu, study don't want. stupid things that does not bring any benefits you want nazrynn. what is this?) i fell asleep like an obese pig yesterday due to not sleeping the night before. just one day i cannot take it. weak uh.

* * *

i miss thousands of things currently.
one thing for sure is that i miss my tongue piercing. tsk. i'll meet you again soon my dear. and i need to do a lot of things. and no, not homework's. i've not touch my books and i don't intend to do so anyway. do i even have homework's? you need help nazrynn. blablabla. but i want to send melon to the laundry's to get him wash. my baby needs to be clean you know.

fuck no cigg.
:(

proper update now.

friday went geylang.
bought two pairs of baju kurung. no kebaya or fancyfancy baju this year. simple would be lovely. parents really spend a lot. and and and i eat a lot of deng deng. sedap or whuaat?
blablabla. stayed up all night till 8am. great night/morning. hehe. pe'ah paitao me flag day. slept till 4pm. siapsiapsiap. and offffffff.

saturday went out with pe'ah.
she almost made me cry waiting for her. fucking slow la that girl.

overdue pictures.


turns out, not proper update.
kanchiong now. shorrrt update. bella want to uses the laptop now.
wait longlong ah then.

i feel sad that i cannot online often anymore.
everything broke down. only hope is when ira is here.

its almost time for school. i need to bath.
proper update soon. i suppose.
:/

nazrynn is an oinkoink recently but at the same time an owl.
you see, it's going to 3am and i'm not asleep. great or whuatt? my daily routine is sleep wakeup makan, eh puase la lupe. heh. pokemon all day long. my totodile has evolved into a croconaw. haha. whoo. i'm a game freak now. games everywhere. i love facebook games. i can play it all day long.

just taking this opportunity to thank my thumbdrive for saving all my stuffs. i'll die if i were to lose you. thank you RYDY. haha. takde makne eh name thumbdrive. expensive want to change name. so i'll stick to this forever.

to find out someone actually talk about me?
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh!
perangai big fuck girl!
:@

i need to catch up in school.

its like a daily routine now. after sahur, laptop.
for now uh. when ira sleep here. if not, booohooo. can't online no more. bella laptop is gonecase. so anyway, how's life nazrynn? i just hate the fact that i have 10hrs of detention to clear.

10 hours dok .
sape mau layan !
fuck .

nazrynn hair seems different.

i was exceptionally early for school today. reaching before the first bell. wow. i'm proud. but i still have 5hrs of detention to clear. and i skipped detention today. lazy oink. and also, despite me not sleeping at all the night before, i was awake during lessons. great or what. except during bio where the sleepiness dah start. heh.

asked pe'ah to teach me math after buka. that sounds so wrong. pe'ah teach math? i finally understand toa cah soh! like finally. but there's still alot of catching up to do. lots of incomplete homework to finish. you can do it nazrynn. and study session without cigg sucks uh. tsk. and half of the time is bestfriend catch up time. wth. padahal kat sekolah dah berbual banyak gila nak mampos.

the plan to rob mccafe cheesecake was splendid.
:D

bad day. bad morning. fuck school.
i've lost my interest in it for now. skipping school/class. truancy banget. i have no issues with mr lin talking to me. but to have shafie suddenly masuk frame? com'on la dah kene sound dengan satu cikgu is enough. there isn't any need for her to masuk campur. fucking bad image i've made of myself. but it doesn't bothers me. complain uh to linda. "extremely rude" eh? abeh ape? sorry uh. i just don't feel there's a need to respect u at all. fucking turn off uh at the sight of ur face. pui.

but i do want to apologise to mr lin. so sorry. i know u're trying to help me. like u said, u as my form teacher dont want me to regret later in future for not doing better now. i'm really trying my best to be that girl whom u know during the first few months. and ms linda, i'm no girl version of iryadiy. if that's what u teachers think of me then that's so sad uh. tsk.

i don't have issues!

nazrynn will be good.
world.

ate pizza hut with pe'ah and nasu.
delicious or what. yumyum. lots of laughter's. as always. u can never not laugh with pe'ah around. obviously uh. after that, quick trip home. then meet alif. introduced him to jurong. haha. budak aljunied katekan. met pe'ah soon after. somehow pe'ah loves the name sufyan? suke sufyan eh pe'ah? huohuohuo.

oinkoink.
zzz.

had been going home late lately.
how i can sesat at the east area i don't know. haha. kening naiknaik. lol. but i had been having a wonderful time with alif uh. patience baybeh.
;D

good thing is that. investiture is done. can relax. now i just need a whole day of relaxation. i'm still waiting though. haha. not having enough sleep too nowadays. trying to stay awake during lessons was a torture. in the end i cannot take it, i fell asleep and classmates had to woke me up. anyway today, went to the dentist. no link uh. just to let you all know je. me and pe'ah show off our clean teeth. tak perlu i know. wth.

and you know what?!
i've been eating non-stop! and noo, not in small quantity. but humongous. haha. i ate banquet, kfc, long john, macdonald all they long. gemok or what? oh nevermind. nazrynn tetap cute. obviously uh. definitely kan alif. haha.

overdue pictures of me and pe'ah. laugh out loud.
hardwork dok.

happy 17th birthday nabilla!
one more year bella. than no need ask ira already. haha.

woke up at 3pm. then get ready off to ecp. rent bike and played with rollerblade. kacau abang jal dslr camera too. soon i will have one myself. wait longlong ah nazrynn. anyway i fall in love with cheesecake at coffee bean. delicious or whuatt?

great day, i don't even remember what i did today.
otak kosong dok.
lol.

blcb investiture cum farewell party.
it was tiring like fook. the day before was like toot. last minute search for teachers prizes. tsk. then wrapping of prizes. ribbons. bleargh. pe'ah help. need to send her home as it was reaching 2am. went pm mac with bella after that and hsh at 4am. slept like oink oink and woke up late. kan-chiong siap. and left for band. i can barely open my eyes! standing for hours make me want to sleep more.

lunch break, went home with pe'ah and nasu. then another rehearsal. fook. cannot tahan. so sleepy. endure. farewell party was next. get changed. the food was bleargh. but i still eat anyway. its food. i love food. traditional dance i like. exchanging gifts and is sad. we will definitely miss our sexy tharani so much! you're a great trumpet section leader. once a trumpeter, always a trumpeter. yeahyeah.

went to pm mac after that. chill with the rest. ate oreo cheesecake and caramel frappe. whoo! go meet the rest at some place and i went home at 2am. haha. takde keje. scary walk home. but alif teman me on the phone. so its good. thank u yer.

tiring day oh whuuat?
hehhh.

happy 16th birthday mohd iryadiy.
i wonder how many times i've said this. skateboard skateboard. hmm.

* * *

i have so many things to write before but my mood isn't that good now.
booo hoooo. booo hoooo. booo hoooo. booo hoooo. booo hoooo. booo hoooo.
D:

i feel like running away.
somewhere far far far away. i don't have the strength to go through all of this. fuck. sometimes i wish i would be someone who doesn't care about stuffs. that would be better. but no, i'm not things can't go on like this. i would be a killer if things were to continue. nazrynn not strong. nazrynn want to run. nazrynn not happy. nazrynn can't lie to herself. what is this fuck.

yesterday:
fireworks was beautiful uh.
planned to go out with school friends cancelled. instead i met alif. it was a coincidence that i met pe'ah inside train. both of us were like so kan-chiong uh. she also meeting someone. maju kape? heh.. at least meeting her relaxes my mind. i'm sure she is thankful in meeting me too. heartbeat kau kuat betul. nervous sangat eh? heh.. we separated at city hall. met alif at marina. met new friends. liar. heh. takpe. and saw a lot of fellow boonlay-ian.

tiring. walk a lot. off to aljunied. chill with them. it was pass midnight. asked parents pick me up. and they were furious. haha. they need to take the chill pill uh. i had a splendid time.

the sad thing was, i have no pictures at all for today.
except for the one with pe'ah inside train.
oh well.

* * *

today will be a busy day.
pe'ah coming to house. do the prizes. lots of story-telling session too perhaps. haha. sigh. tiring tiring. and i still need to do the scripts for english presentation. tsktsktsk. i need a break man. boohoo boohoo. and its so fucking sad that i won't be able to follow parents out. they going to the seaside dok! tsk.

:/

fuh. tired or what.
nazrynn is late as always. sorry ah guys. anw the cloth was too small. went with nasu back to the shop we went yesterday to buy another 2m. tiring. and the weather is hot. like me. *roll eyes* heh. and the nyonya at the shop sungguh tak perlu with that "look! magic!" facial expression. haha! right nasu? hmm. then blablabla. and i played badminton after like a gazzillion years? and i suck at it. i feel like some famous artist somehow today. people keep shouting my name asking me what colour next. cerewet la kan. haha. thats totally nazrynn uh.

went off before eight. tiring and i feel dirty. paint all over my hand. i feel disgusting from lying down on the floor like some hobo. and me and nasu got the feel of how bangla usually eat. haha. mcm pathetic. dah lapar punya pasal.

i worry about u mohd iryadiy.
what other thing is going to happen to u?
tsk.

what a tiring day.

national day celebration in school was not that happening. however me and chichi was minding our own business screaming away in the hall. haha. it was unfair that non of the sec three class won any prizes. tsk. what is this? the charity bazaar was nice. but not happening like last year. no jellies! but i love the strawberry with chocolate. whoo! and the balloon was cute.

after that, it was a dissapointment. hmm.
super sad. patient.

* * *


went "shopping" with pe'ah and nasuha.
from boon lay shopping center to imm. jurong east area brings back a lot of memories. good memories. i miss the old days. hmm. spend a lot at daiso. opps. bocor rahsia. somehow i'm super talkative today. pandai hide sad feeling la kan. talking with all the handsigns. kecoh banget. pe'ah is pekak. construction paper become contract join paper?! HAHA. i've been slept by nasu a lot of times today. you watch out!

tomorrow will be a long day.
lots of things that needed to be completed.
tsk. busy bee.

heh..

did not went to school.
i overselpt. can't be late for the third time. mum don't want to meet the principle. so i slept the whole day like oink oink. planned to go for poa and math lesson after school. failed. woked up at 2.30pm. instead met pe'ah and nasuha at banquet. eat. whoo. went back to school to see preparation for tomorrow's national day celebration. as what herlina mention, today is a sexy day. haha.

pe'ah pose in an obscene way.
alamak. pecah screen laptop.
opppss. haha.

yesterday,
fastest time to get ready kape? 10 minutes sey. haha. pe'ah called to teman her watch anugerah with the kids. being a good bestfriend, i did. while wearing my shirt, receive a call that they're downstairs. kan-chiong la kan. her dad is the same species as her. suke buat lawak. cannot stop laughing. well anyway, didnt get the chance to meet chirul. boo!

so sleepy that i slept like oinkoink.

* * *

<3
i've never mentioned before my happy moments on the third of august. hehheh. happy? sad? i don't know. but what i know is that. i'm fucking happy. lol.
lepaskan rasa rindu. heh.

* * *

i need an attitude change.
yes although there's people out there trying to help me get back on the right track, i don't see any improvements on myself. i suppose just telling me to change doesn't work. cause i have this thing that i don't really quite listen to others. true. hmm.

and gosh thousands of things that needed to be done. even homework's from the june holiday? wtf is this nazrynn? tsk. two essays and powerpoint for English project. including of scripts too. draw a heart and powerpoint slide on leukemia for bio. collage and forgiveness letter[?] for SEL. tons of uncompleted poa homework. gazzilion of uncompleted math homework.

detention was a @#$%&!* waste of time.
tsk.

school was somewhat fast today. like what pe'ah said.
dnt practical will start soon. next is getting lesser day by day. sadden. there's a new teacher for pe. kinda cute. nahh. the performance during assembly was so weird. after school, went jurong point with pe'ah. bought the cards. felt hungry. went banquet. meal and dessert. fuh. haha. gemok sey.

pe'ah got issues today too. vanilla become nabilla. cathay become cathy. sushi become susy. lol. seriously got issues with people names uh. and we laugh non-stop today. macam orang giler.

so sad la kan.
nazrynn soon k, relax.
hmm.

tsk. leg cramp. walk a lot man.
just got back. tired. went out with pe'ah to find prizes for investiture. incomplete. got a lot of work to be done. pe'ah malumalu kucing. so coincidence that we met that babyface guy again? pe'ah went crazy when he smiled to her. haha. chance hilang ah kau gini. the day went by and we saw many familiar and new faces. good day to go out. haha.

pe'ah just got her tooth remove. aww so sad. no more tooth. bogeh! haha. and she needs to choose. tetap iz kape?

and nazrynn got this confident moment inside the train. haha. if only you guys were there to witness it. lose face sia. confident gila babi nak mampos. tsk.

having next, completes the day.
huohuohuo.

bella bake a lot of this. for hairil's birthday. and there's leftover.
don't they look so cute? so cute that its hard for me to eat them. and they taste good.

reached home at night.
all because of this mother tongue cultural festival [?] in school. and we met mr ishak! our i lay my love on you primary school teacher. he recognise pe'ah but not me. tsk. not surprise luh. how i look back then.. urgh. haha. he was super skinny like skeleton. gosh. was shocked indeed. well anyway, the only thing i like about it was the fooood. i ate @#$%#!& a lot. super hungry. the chocolate thingy is nice. the cheesecake is nice. i ate 5 of each. and not to forget the carrot cake. tambah man. fuh. gemok kebabom [?]. wth.

you are my sweetest downfall
i loved you first, i loved you first
<3

a mundane poa lesson's as always.

talk a lot with pe'ah.
seriously many things. especially about pe'ah new crush. hahaha. "macam gigi u eh?" haha! wth. pe'ah makan tak senonoh. how to eat with gigi boy like this? later he need to do the phoneringandigottogoitsanemergency plan. padan muke kau. thats totally herlina. but nevermind, confirm he more teruk la. oops.

i ate non-stop at kfc. hungry banget.
fuh gemok.
heh.

* * * *

AKU TAK BAHAGIA SIUL !
k i need to take the chill pill.
hmm.

today is a.. i don't know whether i should be happy or sad.

i had fun yesterday.
went out with few band members to watch some performance at victoria concert hall. and i only found out that it was an orchestra when i reached there? gosh. trumpet parts are so little. and the solo person needs to take the chill pill. me pe'ah farhan and haziq decided to go off after the interval. sat and chitchat at esplanade. talk a lot. and i fell in love with the sweetcorn there. yum.

at last only left two couple.
solo eat at marina macdonald. takpe. solo pun jadi. korang taknak makan sudah. pe'ah too fell madly in love with this babyface guy in the train. tsk. pe'ah also went crazy over a small sip of alcohol? and she was terrified to go home since its nearing midnight. gila pe'ah.

i did say that i wanna quit. fahamfaham je la k.
for now. soon. idk. hmm.
k.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ATIQAH MY SAYANG!
bila mau keluar ni?
sayang kau.
:D

eh i cut my hair. you wished. -_-

i just realised that i'm fucking stubborn la.
my eyes are already giving up on me but yet i refused to sleep.
tsk.

school was kinda fun today. nahh. being with pe'ah makes my days brighter.
last minute study for geography. great. even despite me telling pe'ah the answers during the ca, she's still super blur. i'm pissed off with her handing in super short and uncompleted answers. please eh pe'ah. and also she and sally had hardcore sex! fuyoh. hahaha. pe'ah way of saying world is super hilarious giler babi till my stomach hurts from laughing so much. herlina herlina..

kau sungguh merepek.
:P

hmm. sleepless night. tsk. yesterday slept at 6am? gosh. what was i doing? hehheh. i don't know whether to be happy or sad. i'm happy to a certain extent. i guess. and now? its 2:51am i'm not yet asleep when there's school tomorrow? what is this. i think there's ca tomorrow. hmm. but i can't remember what subject it is. easy say, i'm going to flunk it. tsk. what is going to happen to you nazrynn?

anyway just now, went out with ira. purpose is to teman her buy this wallet at furoshiki. and i ate alot man. from kfc two piece chicken with cheese fries. then macdonald large fries with icecream sundae. yum. foooood. i love food. but i cant see myself finishing one meal completely. its as though its a must to have leftover.

i need money. fast. where can i get fast cash? robbery? drug trafficking? prostitution? righhht. its like we can get fast cash by doing bad things only. hrr. don't talk about work. work is a long journey. i need fast cash. emphasizing on the fast.

why cant i sleep?
lovesick.
:/

why smile?

something's amiss.
i dont feel good in so many ways.
not until...
DD: